Next week I’ll be having my first appointment with a therapist. I had a near mental breakdown earlier this week and realized that I was pushing all of my stresses about losing my “non-essential” job and finding a new job, hating the third shift and finding another new job, the pandemic, the current political and economic issues, and just the stresses of working all day, having 2 hours before I fall asleep and an hour of that is cooking. It all started to boil over.
I’ve never done any sort of therapy besides physical and retail therapy. I have no idea what to expect but obviously I need to find a good outlet to my problems instead of drowning them out with watching tv and scrolling through social media (which isn’t helping all of my anxiety and stress).
I’ve done some reading on what to expect and things to think about, but every time I prepare for something, I get overconfident in a bad way and then I am blindsided by what reality is.
I’ve been putting off my mental health for too long and finally have to raise the white flag of defeat in the battle of avoiding my problems. And from what research has shown about people who have had concussions and Traumatic Brain Injuries, Depression, suicide, abuse are very common and are rarely dealt with. I don’t want to be a statistic. I want to find healthy ways to keep myself going until I am that old man on my front porch in the rocking chair yelling at the kids to get off my lawn.
Personal Fixer Upper 